Chagrin.

When I first entered UP, I had a really good friend. We were close throughout first year. In second year, we became lab partners in Bio 102. Unfortunately, that was the semester when my life, for a lack of a better term, fucked up. Council was taking its toll on my body. My changing financial status was screwing with me. I was depressed as anyone could be. Because of this, I kinda got side-tracked on my academics, including my bio 102 class. Sometimes, I'd have to come from Pampanga to sort out the paperwork I needed for my STFAP rebracketing (without which I would be unable to continue studying at the university). I'd be late for my 7 AM 102 Lab class. I know I was at fault and I've apologized profusely for my mishaps during that class.

So must you really bring it up every time we get together? This was nearly three years ago! For fuck's sake man grow some fucking balls, you're acting like a pussy who can't settle a fricking grudge. I've wronged you, I've acknowledged that. I had my reasons for screwing up so bad, and any decent, logical person would acknowledge all sides, forgive and forget. So why bring it up? Lay it to rest already, please.

You know why I'm so hesitant to take the job offer at UP? It's because your constant shots at me during and ever since that class has fucked up my confidence to teach that subject! Because of your immaturity, or perhaps your so called "fun and games" (cause face it, people do love schadenfreude), I don't feel like I have the capacity to be able to teach that subject with justice. It's really gotten to me. I dunno what to do with my life now. Arse.

We're still good friends, don't get me wrong. But this is one pet peeve that you can't seem to lay to rest, so why should I?